Teach Me To Clear My Head

I’m a non-stop thinker. Sometimes my mind can be running at a hundred miles an hour and it all becomes chaos. More then that, sometimes I have a lot I need to process and when I let it all bottle up in there I usually explode in one way or another.

For a couple years the chaos in my head would seep out in anger, frustration, shelling up, rudeness, nightmares, night sweats, lack of sleep and so much more. More then anything it made me very unhealthy. I would eat too much to not think about it, I would sleep every other night, and I would barely go out.

It finally came to a head and I knew I had to change. At first it started with a diet and then exercise. Exercise was a gift from heaven. It may not have cleared everything out of my head but it released so much of the anxiety that had built up from my busy mind. In the end when I lost all the weight I had gained, I felt so much better and clearer. But that still wasn’t enough.

I needed purpose to keep mind focused. That’s when I joined this new band and for the first time I had focus and I didn’t feel all over the place. I felt like I was doing something I truly loved and it was healing me day by day. To this day it’s one of the best things I’m apart of and it has saved me from so much crap.

By this time I knew I was getting close to a clear head, but I still had all this past dirt from my life that I hadn’t processed yet and it was keeping my mind occupied and unsettled. That’s when someone had suggested I write my thoughts out. They had told me it would help. I figured I already been doing a lot of writing as a passion already, so I decided to give it a try.

Within weeks, these word documents or pieces of paper that I had wrote were changing the way my mind worked. All I was doing was writing out what I was thinking, but in doing so, I was seeing that a lot of the past that I thought I couldn’t understand was clear and I was able to move past it.

To this day, I’m thankful for all these things because they have made me more balanced and though there is still clutter in my head every now and then, I have great ways to clear it out and move past it.

If you find yourself having the same problem, I hope you find ways to clear out the clutter. You will find that when you do, you wake up the next day actually felling fresh and maybe even weightless.